This whole week after National Day, everyday was super shitty for me. Today is really the bloody shittiest day I had. Early morning wake up preparing to go to work as usual. Met up my gf usual timing and she was later than me coz she went to transfer my money back to me.

While onboard the train, she rise questions on Sze Yun again. Then I started to get a little annoying. And she force me to show evidents that I didn't like Sze Yun before. I started to feel pissed off not because I dont want to show her but more on why want to do this early morning. After I shown to her & she cannot find any proof, she started to blame me for putting so many problems between us. Initally I thought maybe because of her period but her period wasn't even close! Then I think no point quarrel coz I told her before that I dont want to quarrel over Sze Yun. Shuttle bus came and I told her to walk faster and she went to help Sze Yun get newspaper. I even more pissed off coz the bus uncle is waiting and he is impatient person and I worried we get scold. After we board the bus, I saw Sze Yun happily sit down and expect the newspaper to arrive. Then I got more angry with my gf being so stupid and dumb. Yet my gf told me Sze Yun text her for help coz she needs to withdraw money. Then I asked why cannot withdraw afternoon then she say dont know. In the office, Sze Yun told me because she is helping Renee to withdraw money. I got angry. Why want to help people you don't know well.

Then my friend Evon text me saying she got throat infection and so I ask her to rest well and we can meet another day. Then she says she want to eat something light like soup spoon. Then i ask her to choose the location coz I am starting to work. Shegot pissed off and scolded me if I m not happy to eat soup spoon then dont meet. I was really caring for her and ask her postpone but she dont appreciate. I feel really WTF LIAO. Then ended I still got to become nicer tone and text with nice message to ask her to meet me for dinner. Haizzz

After which falls lunch time while I am doing my work, everyone left me alone in the office without asking if I want any lunch. I feel so lonely that moment. I still walked out alone and had my lunch. I asked my gf if she wants polar cake and we can shared. She told me ok and she can eat for breakfast. I was happily queing for that and the sales lady was taking long time like 5 mins to process transcation. OMG luckily I still got a bit of time and decided to walk fast fast in the afternoon sun. Reached kong guan building and msg my gf if she wants any drinks. I really never expected her to come and meet me. And worst thing is meet me at the wrong place!!! Tick tock and my boss is in the office. I told her that usually I took the cargo lift and she said She dont know and say i very fierce. OMG AGAIN!!! If I am fierce then how come I can survive!!!!

While I thought whole day is going to end soon.. My gf never wait for me as usual and boarded the train ahead of me. I dont even know what happen until she text me sorry I left with sze yun coz she is in a hurry. When I heard that, I was pissed off. Again is SZE YUN!!!! I really find it disappointing because I can put in effort to meet her and walked to the front carriage when we took the same train but she cannot do it for me. I am more disappointing because I am so sad and no one is there for me, worst is my gf totally forgot she promise to take my polar cake and left with a good friend she thought but not.

While I am in the train, I TOLD MYSELF AGAIN.. HISTORY HAS REPEATED..

I SHALL NOT PUT IN 90% TO LOVE MY GF. TODAY INCIDENT HAS PROVE THAT I SHOULD JUST PUT 30%.  #simplyhateit

FUCK YOU PEOPLE!!!!! KNNBCCB